So I’ve never legitimately studied for an exam or test before. In my entire life. But as these are my last exams before I leave Jamaica and I’ve been fairly productive recently I figured I should actually study. It was horrible . Working my ass off for three days, sleep deprivation and frustration choking me!
So the exam was ok, for the first time I didn’t have my fifteen minute pause at the beginning, and hatred for the sound of everyone else’s pens scratching against their papers. I knew how to answer the questions and my hand was cramped up afterwards.
So I was feeling pretty fantastic, and then someone lots of people told me that they didn’t study and they felt really confident about it. Kinda killed my buzz there.
You know when someone says that they wish that they were a famous celebrity, and then another person tells the cons? Why do we always have to list the cons? Why can’t it just be that they didn’t study and are going to get the same grades, or better ones than I am? At first I was a tiny bit upset, but then I figured we just have to accept things like this, and that’s okay.
Then i got to spend a few minutes with my friend who I haven’t sen since the dinosaurs were roaming the earth!And I made a wish on a ten dollar coin and tossed it into a fairly swampy-looking water feature. Maybe because no one else makes wishes there mine will come true!
And then she gave me a flower! lol, well, said I could have it :)
And then I realised that I’m quite happy, and that maybe I kinda like who I am, maybe I like myself, and one day may be able to love myself.
and i think that that would be very nice indeed :)